Without having the reins in this crucial decision-making point in my life, I've done just that. Made some changes. Maybe we're more along the lines of in the process of making changes. But nonetheless, it's happening.
And I'm ok with it. I'm all for it, two feet in, ready to hit the ground running, never been more sure in my life, let's do this already - ready. Specifics would result in a novel, so I'll have to keep it all under wraps for now. But if you see me smiling, don't say I didn't warn you.
We all hit a little high, or low note in our life, when we realize that we either need to make a change, we deserve something, or we need to expand ourselves. I, conveniently, chose all three, of course. I like to keep things extra interesting. I like to think of it as a challenge, a challenge that can only result in positivity, happiness, and a solid girl of an outcome. I'm just wondering why I haven't made this decision sooner.
I realize that I need to make a lot of changes, as we all usually do at any given point on our lives. They may not be drastic, or maybe they are. Regardless, change is always for the better. Always. I believe that I only deserve what God wants to give me. This is obvious. Anything He gives us, is really all we need, if you think about it. And anything that He decides to take away, is also exactly what you need. Sometimes He gives us a little less, so that when we finally get a little extra, we've learned to appreciate it for what it's worth and where it came from. My only complaint is that with the big heart I have, I know that I'm deserving of some solid, whole hearted love to love me right back. I have a big heart. I have a good heart. And unfortunately, people use it as A.) A stepping stool to get themselves to another level. B.) As a time filler. C.) As a test to see "what else is out there", or "what it's really like to be loved." I have a lot of love to give, and I give it to those who I believe deserve it. Unfortunately for me, I've given it to a few select people who had given me the wrong idea, and took it for granted. My love is now is a sealed-tight zip-lock bag, waiting to be used on the right one. Love is nothing to take for granted/use at your dispense. It's something you're deserving of. You've got to earn it. I'm also into expanding myself and my horizons. I've been doing things I wouldn't normally fid myself doing, and finding out that I actually enjoy it. I've been taking risks, and feel fulfilled. I've even been doing things out of my realm, and surprisingly it all fits. Things are looking up. Finally.
And I don't mind it. I don't mind it at all.
Current Listen: Iron & Steel - His Name Shall Breathe
