Basically ...
Every single day this week, I've had obnoxious amounts of energy, all day long. Even at five AM when I had to be up for work when the stars are still out and the moon hasn't even finished with REM mode yet. Feels good to be young. Today, on the other hand, was a rough one.
I had way too much energy all day. Dance parties at work, barely working, dancing on the ledges in the middle of the store while setting up Valentine's Day with Tom. My job rules. I needed to let loose after the week I had.
I had a mini anxiety attack in the morning, but let it ride out and didn't think much of it. This never happens to me. In fact, I didn't even know it was an anxiety attack. I never let things get to me, and I surely don't dwell on anything. Then ... I got a phone call from my sister with some terrible news - her father-in-law got into a bad car accident and was in trauma. I was a little on edge all day after that.
I went to the hospital as soon as I could jet out of work to see how the situation was. Poor thing was bang up pretty bad. Sitting at the hospital with my sister and brother in law, I knew that I felt completely off. I was quiet, couldn't hold my concentration for even a few seconds, and my mind kept trailing. So not me. About an hour later, my heart started pounding and racing, I got extremely lightheaded and dizzy, and I felt completely out of it. Major anxiety attack. I tried to keep myself somewhat collected to avoid a full on panic attack. Ugh.
For a solid chunk of the day, I felt meline, a canary yellow. But now I'm feeling more indigo, deep blue/purple. That being said, I've decided to stay in on this Friday night to recenter myself. At this point, I think I'm definitely in need of a bit of r & r.
Current Listen - Festival - Sigur Ros
