What an awesome night at church.
A Pastor at my church, who I never really had a sit-down conversation with, came up to me and said, "How old are you?" I was totally confused. "Twenty four. Why?" I said, with a look on my face like he just asked me what the square root of 4,784 was. "You should lead a missions trip in mexico for high schoolers.", he said, totally straight faced. "Really ... well that's really weird, because that's something I've been praying about." And I was. Constantly. Ever since El Salvador, the leader of our trip asked me if I would consider leading a high school team in Mexico. I said I'd pray about it. I guess this is round two of hardcore prayer.
So, that's what I'm doing. Praying, hard. I've been praying alongside the Mexico prayer, that God would open doors for full time missionary work for me. It's something that I think He is really laying on my heart. It's funny because at work, my boss will tell me from time to time, "Ali, you're going to be a Visual Director one day. I say in two years. You have amazing potential." (This is something that rarely ever happens, there are people in Visual that have been there eight years, and are still not directors.) But in the back of my mind, every single time she says that, I always think to myself, "But I'm not going to be here. I'm going to be serving the Lord. This is not what He wants me to do. This has nothing to do with doing His work. He has much bigger plans for me." It's automatic, every single time. I don't even think about thinking about it when it happens, it's just like, oh my goodness ... there it is again!
This is open door number one. If this is what the Lord wants me to do, if Mexico is where he wants me, He will put me in Mexico this coming June. I wasn't even supposed to go to El Salvador, but He put me there.
I have 100%, no doubt about it, total trust in Him. I was always one to try to plan ahead, make sure that what I thought needed to get done, got done on a timely basis. It's incredibly freeing to know that my life is in His hands. I'll let Him do His work. I'm just along for the ride!
