Here. Let me ramble.
First things first, I have been conversing back and forth with Daredevil tattoo, who, by the way, is amazing, patient, super personal, and probably the coolest people ever. For as huge as they are (if you say Daredevil in a tattoo induced conversation, the other end of the conversation will without a doubt know who you're talking about - they're they Miami Ink of New York), the owner of the Lower East Side shop has been emailing me via his Blackberry on Saturday nights and off hours, just to set me up with the perfect artist for my piece. THAT, my friends, is unheard of customer service. I've finally settled on the perfect designer, Claire, who has done a what looks like a life sized piece of a peacock on a customers' entire right torso, including incredibly intricate detail and about a million feathers. She's perfect for the feather I'm getting on my rib cage. I'm so excited, I know it's going to be pure perfection.
I've even conjured up a second tattoo already. A tiny flock of birds' shadows on the inside of my forearm. You're probably thinking, "What's up with all the bird references?" The feather tattoo is a bible reference. Psalm 91:4 "He shall cover you with his feathers, and under His wings you shall take refuge." Those who trust in the Lord, will experience His protection. Kind of like how a mother bird protects her little chicks under her wing. Being saved and loving and living for the Lord, He's been my protection, my reason, my life. I'm a better and different person because of that. The feather tattoo may be pretty, but it has tons of meaning to me. The flock of birds is on a more personal level. I plan to get one bird in the flock that's larger than the rest, symbolizing myself, and smaller birds around the larger bird, but flying in different directions, symbolizing the people I've met in my almost twenty five years of life. These birds symbolize the fact that people come and go in your life. And while everyone is going their own way, the few that I have in my life right now, are the people that I want there.
Have you ever been at a point in your life where you realize that where you are at that exact moment, is the place you've been striving for, the place where you're actually truly happy, where everything is going in the right direction? That's exactly where I'm at, and I've never, ever been happier. I've been spending lots of time with some really great people. And I'm having the time of my life. I've made new, incredible friends. I'm doing the things I've always wanted to do. And it's all formed me into the person that's taken me an entire twenty five years to form into. Some people may not agree with the person I am, some people may wonder where this person came from, but I've never been happier with where I'm at. I feel ... well ... real.
I've been having this feeling in my bones. It's on my mind twenty four seven, it's something I've always loved with my whole being, and will probably never happen. Regardless, I've been feeling extra inclined to take on an instrument or two. Guitar and piano are what I'm feeling the strongest. I've grown up with a piano in my house since I was born, but my oldest sister took it to her and her husband's house. I miss it. I can't read music to save my life, but I can hear a song, and then sit down and learn it by ear in less than an hour. Don't call me a musical prodigy. I'm far from it. But speaking of musical prodigies ...
I was at a shin dig this weekend and this kid Brett, who, I think it's safe to say, is a musical prodigy, went wild on the drums. Travis Barker is good and all, but this kid is straight up nasty. I felt like I shouldn't have been in the room listening because it was like listening to the equivalent of a leaked Beatles song when they were bigger than sliced bread. This kid makes his own beats, then drums out to it. He blew my mind. Blew my mind up and down. And the next thing you know, it's 3am. It happens.
Although I've been spending more time in subways than in my own car, more time at venues than I am in my own bed, I wouldn't trade it for a thing. I'm having the time of my life, and I have my father in heaven and some great company to thank for it.
Current Listen: Cigarettes Will Kill You - Ben Lee
